Saturday, October 22, 2011
We came home about 730pm exhausted after a full day and an hour drive after spending a wonderful day with my cousin and his wife. We have our homestudy renewal visit tomorrow after 13 months of waiting for our children. Its at 10 am and we went crazy cleaning the house at 8pm. Well, as I was cleaning the kitchen, my husband was dusting and vacuuming the rest of the house.....and as I was scrubbing the bathroom and the toilet I thought to myself...."I will do anything it takes to be a parent"....... and then I thought.......Do others work so hard to prove themselves to be worthy of a child?? Why do we have to go through home visits, medical exams, fingerprints, background checks, financial statements, federal immigration approval, W2's and personal references letters to be worthy to be parents of a child when others can bear children no questions asked?? Must we be so perfect??? Are all parents perfect?? We have so much love to give and there are millions of children that need love so .......I just get frustrated......
Posted by momtobe at Saturday, October 22, 2011
Friday, October 7, 2011
For some reason...I feel a calm. As anxious as I am for the call, I am cherishing my life with my husband right now. Don't get me wrong, I get teary eyed in my car sometimes leaving work with all of my friends talking about their children, giving birth, and getting pregnant. In my heart of hearts, I know my call for my children will happen on God's time. I pray every day and know that our blessing will come. I just hope that they are being hugged and kissed, away from harm, and waiting for us as we are for them. I hope they know that we are coming with open arms, and when we meet, it will be perfect.
Posted by momtobe at Friday, October 07, 2011
Sunday, October 2, 2011
In the mean time, I have started graduate school and am working on my second published article, life is busy. But in my heart, my little ones are at the forefront, and wait patiently for them.
Posted by momtobe at Sunday, October 02, 2011